It’s been nearly three years since my last confession.
Where have I been for the past three years?
I started this site in law school as a form of productive procrastination. I stopped blogging when I started studying for the bar exam and when I started my first job. My life was so hectic and there were so many major changes, blogging had to take a backseat. For while, I kept doing my nails, taking pictures, and keeping up with new collections even though I wasn’t actively posting. But, slowly, I stopped taking pictures and keeping up with new colors. Eventually, I stopped doing my nails entirely.
There are a lot factors underlying that chain of events. First, I was in court every single day. And I felt it wasn’t appropriate to wear the colors I loved wearing. I was mostly wearing nudes, light pinks, etc., and I felt like most of my readers would not care to see those colors. To add another layer – I was working really long hours. I was so burnt out all the time. I never felt like sitting down, editing photos, comparing colors, and posting.
Everything was neglected, everything suffered. My nails were/are a ragged-cuticle ridden mess. My collection went from being meticulously organized, to just a bunch of nail polish, separating from neglect, sitting in the helmers. I stopped having color recall, I started forgetting color names, collection names, brand names, forgetting actual colors, forgetting how to describe them – what words to use. Every time I tried blogging, I would feel so overwhelmed by the prospect that I would give up. At some point, my computer met with the blue screen of death and I lost all my backlogged photos, my stash spreadsheet, and everything related to my blog. Taking that as a sign, I finally decided that I wouldn’t be able to blog anymore. My lighting system came down and my camera went in my closet. That was about two years ago.
The nail polish world has changed so much since I went into a permanent hiatus. Before, there were only a handful of good blogs – now there seems to be an infinite universe of them. Each more impressive than the last! And the recently released colors and collections are SO amazing (OPI Pirates of the Caribbean, whooooat…).
Even though I consider those to be positive changes – it also contributed to my decision to stop blogging. Once my life settled down, work became less hectic, and I started having more free time – the desire to start blogging again slowly began to build up. But I felt like I had nothing to add to the conversation because of the sheer number of blogs covering everything nail polish related. On one level the abundance of nail blogs gave me great joy, especially because I wasn’t very well received when I started this site. And the extent of the production and availability of new unique colors, glitters, holos, crackles, duochromes, multichromes, etc., makes me I feel like all the bloggers finally had an effect on the market – no more collections with 6 reds and maybe 1 unique color, or so it seems. But on another level – I felt that I couldn’t compete. And by the time I was in a position to blog again – I was 9 katrillion collections behind. How could I ever catch up?
So, why am I recounting this tale of woe (assuming there is a “you” reading all this)?
Those were my feelings until a few weeks ago when my husband (oh yea, I’m married now too) surprised me by coming home with the OPI NYC Ballet Minis. (This is something he will surely live to regret doing). I had not purchased a bottle of nail polish for myself in well over a year. And, using My Pointe Exactly, I did my nails at home for the first time in months. My passion was totally rekindled. Suddenly, I realized, I’m practicing a different type of law now, I go to court once in a blue moon – I have more freedom with my nails. It occurred to me that I should start over.
I’m re-launching my site, this time for real. One subcategory of nail polish that does not seem to be well covered is work appropriate colors. So I think that will be my beat– as a person who is perpetually stuck in professional polish purgatory, I’m constantly on the lookout for unique colors that will be appropriate in a professional setting. Of course, there will be forays into the more adventurous too (in hopes that the site won’t be too boring for those who don’t suffer from the same polish restrictions that I do.)
With that said, I’m finally going to go through my entire collection – finally wear my hundreds of untrieds. I’m going to catalogue, organize, shake, and hopefully, through this process, begin to remember all my beloved polishes and become acquainted with everything new and exciting. The point is – I’m going to post about the colors I love and that I’m wearing and hopefully it will be worth reading. Most importantly, I’m not going to let this become an overwhelming unpaid job again – this is my hobby. I want to do it because I love it.
I’m so excited to be back! I’m kicking things off tomorrow with an oldie but goodie – stay tuned! : )